7days post-op -30lbs (15 pre-surgery)
Ahhh numbers, sometimes they are fun like, ‘I lost lost 2lbs since the last time I weighed myself’ or ‘I ate three spoons of Greek yogurt today’ but others just seem so overwhelming. Numbers like my age, what’s in my bank account until Friday (the answer is ‘not enough’) and of course the biggest of all numbers my heaviest weight. Today was spent thinking a lot about numbers and it would seem everything important in life needs to be quantified.
Since being off work and beginning this blog about the journey of weightloss I’ve been approached to do a few other interviews and As it’s obvious, I love an audience so I’m happy to promote the blog even more. One of the most common questions still remains the most difficult “What was your heaviest weight or your starting weight?”. Of course asking such a thing makes perfect sense when talking about the progress of someone who’s had weight loss surgery but it’s a number that has so many feelings attached to it. I didn’t start this journey wholly for the vanity of the scale but to improve my mobility and my health in the future so there is a part of me that does not wish to focus so much on the scale but the shame of that number still exists. Somehow by sharing that number you acknowledge just how far out of control you allowed things to get. So today I’ve decided that the big number (my starting weight) will be mine alone for the time being. Maybe once I’ve seen more progress I will want to share, I’m just not quite there. I will however gladly share my goals and progress. So as of today I am 30lb lighter than when I started this journey and from now on you will find a losing talley at the top of every post. Half of that weight was lost pre-surgery while on a liver shrinking pre-op liquid diet for two weeks and the other fifteen I lost in hospital and the 7days following surgery. As far as my long term goals go, I would like to lose a total of 125lbs. It will not be easy though. I realize the first 60 may be but the remainder is work that I am willing to put in.
Are you comfortable talking about your numbers?