I’ve been trucking along following my pre-op protein shake diet, today I start my clear liquid fast and now I’m freaking out. Maybe I’ve looked at too many photos and videos of people complaining about it their post surgery loose skin. Here’s and example:
I ended up spending most of last night half naked in front of a mirror squishing and contorting my body trying estimate my results. I am aware that after a year at a stable weight you can apply for plastic surgery and have some of it fixed but there are long wait lists
Thing is, I’ve always felt super sexy, even at my largest and I worry I won’t want to even get naked a year from now. I’ve been incredibly bless to have found an super supportive loving guy about 1.5 years ago. I love that he fell in love with me like this. At 38, I’ve had a series of poor long term relationships where I wasn’t treated very well most likely because I didn’t feel I deserved it. C is different, he’s genuine and kind, he truly listens and cares.
He has tried to reassure me not to worry about that stuff but I can’t help but wonder if deflated boobs and saggy tummy and butt don’t do it for him. He’s incredibly attractive and I think I’m the only bigger girl he’s ever been with. My mind knows I can trust that he will stick by me but is it ever messing with my mind. Is this something you struggle with?
Decided that self care was the answer and went to visit my friend Jenn who is a doula/massage therapist/yogi. If you have ever thought that yoga isn’t for big bodies Jenn and the Peaceful Path will help you find your way. We had a lovely chat, cry and followed it up with a massage.
Followed by a scenic relaxing visit with my friend I. On the pier.